Two posts in one day. Although, my first one can't really be counted as a post. It was a funny video I had to share. This is the real post...

Have you ever noticed that when God has a point to make and you seem to brush Him off from making it, He sends pointed reminders to you from every direction? As if to say "ummm... I'm not going away so you might as well deal with this now." My whole life I've struggled with forgiving people who hurt or take advantage of me. I don't dwell on them - or what they've done - instead I have a tendency to write them off, as if they had never lived and I put them and their infraction in a little room in my mind. And close the door. The only time that room gets opened is if I want to toss someone else in there.

I know I'm not alone in this struggle, Brandon Heath (one of my new favorite artists, by the way), wrote a song about it (it's good...listen to it here) and shared his struggle publicly. Wish I were as enlightened/creative as he is. I also wish I were more brave. Some of these people I have "written off" I will probably never approach for whatever excuse I assign them.

Not exactly Christian of me... and I'll excuse it as the humanness/sin nature I live and battle daily. That's mostly true. It's actually fear - fear I'll say something so ridiculously stupid I'll make it worse or that I'll somehow say something and accept responsibility for the rift even existing and yup - pride, too...(need I add to that after explaining the fear part?) Man I can't wait until Christ returns. It's painful trying to work on being Christ-like! I am lousy at it, to say the least. Whatever must God think of me????

Tonight, though, in clicking through a few new blogs, I stumbled across a post with a quote from C.S. Lewis. C.S. Lewis was a brilliant man who delved so deeply into the Word of God that I'm willing to bet if you looked at him you could almost see Jesus attached to his hip...

Anyhow. The quote... "To be a Christian means to forgive the inexcusable, because God has forgiven the inexcusable in you."

::sigh:: I think I'm going to have to stop brushing God off on this one...

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