Since November 23, 2010, I have...
1. Broken a toe that stubbornly refused to heal.
2. Been at a friend's side as he passed away and then stood with his widow through a memorial and military funeral.
3. Learned dear friends were pregnant with their second child and within weeks learned that same child has Trisomy 18 and may not live to full term or through delivery but if she does, she will only live for a few hours after birth.
4. Been sick with bronchitis and some other viral malady they never named.
5. Was with my mother as she passed away & am still going through all that follows that.
6. Been with my dog as he had first some virus and then a grand mal seizure.
7. Done something to my back (MRI results Wednesday) and am having serious difficulty sitting and standing.
8. Found out my dog has an "indeterminate" mass on his stomach and/or liver.
But...for my MRI this morning, I was offered headphones and any one of a huge list of CD's or any FM station to play while they did the test. I chose my local Christian radio station, Spirit 105.3.
The first song I heard? "It Is You" by the Newsboys.
It's bad, folks. It's really, really bad right now. I think the only reason I'm not a puddle is because I'm in too much shock over the waves that keep coming to actually cry. I stand in disbelief.
But under it all... seriously, under it all. I know. I KNOW. With every single fiber of my being that God has this and that as long as I keep trusting Him, He will work it all together for good. All of it. For His good. Not mine, per say. His. His renown. His glory. Him. All Him. I won't copy it all here but I turn to Isaiah 25 & 26 in times such as this. Here is a portion of Isaiah 25:
1 LORD, you are my God;
I will exalt you and praise your name,
for in perfect faithfulness
you have done wonderful things,
things planned long ago.
2 You have made the city a heap of rubble,
the fortified town a ruin,
the foreigners’ stronghold a city no more;
it will never be rebuilt.
3 Therefore strong peoples will honor you;
cities of ruthless nations will revere you.
4 You have been a refuge for the poor,
a refuge for the needy in their distress,
a shelter from the storm
and a shade from the heat.
For the breath of the ruthless
is like a storm driving against a wall
5 and like the heat of the desert.
You silence the uproar of foreigners;
as heat is reduced by the shadow of a cloud,
so the song of the ruthless is stilled.
6 On this mountain the LORD Almighty will prepare
a feast of rich food for all peoples,
a banquet of aged wine—
the best of meats and the finest of wines.
7 On this mountain he will destroy
the shroud that enfolds all peoples,
the sheet that covers all nations;
8 he will swallow up death forever.
The Sovereign LORD will wipe away the tears
from all faces;
he will remove his people’s disgrace
from all the earth.
The LORD has spoken.
I know He has it and it will all work to His glory. I praise Him in my pain, I keep my eyes focused squarely on Him. And I Trust. I Pray. I Wait.
I love you, Lord. Always.